Her Dreams are Nightmares by Priya Indra

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SSR Gone too soon

                Silenced 
Sushant:

Atrocities silenced him,
He silenced the atrocities,
Who silenced whom,
HE knows it.

A deafening silence,
Or
Is it the noise
Rising from a tornedo?

A sleeping Kumbha,
Sweet dreams disturbed?
What will he decide -
Avenge or settle?

It's wake -
Too powerful for many to rest,
Just gentle for a few.

OR

Is it Sush?
" Divya Drishti"
His first words to HIM.

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God is focusing on the Singh household to bring normalcy in their lives. Rajeshwari has trained her self to be a good girl. Too good for everyone around her except Dharmesh. The line between acting good and being mean is blurred beyond recognition in Rajeshwari's world. The hallucinations hereafter go unnoticed by everyone. Will Rajeshwari survive the hell she has created for everyone? Will Dharmesh be able to rescue her? Read on to see her family's role in this conflict between reality and make-believe world.


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repercussions of Corona Virus

What! 2020!

April 25, 2020 - This day, last month, we would have started our journey to Ahmedabad and already settled there as of today.

December 2019 saw Corona Virus hissing its way through Wuhan, a city in China.

January 1, 2020 began on a sweet note.  We boarded the direct train to Ahmedabad at 5:15 AM. All excited and happy as we were finally going to our favourite destination after a long wait of one year, eight months and thirteen days, to be precise. By the way, we are, my kiddos – Payal, Priyanshu and yours truly, Priya Indra. With unbound joy and the responsibility of the big tasks that lay ahead for we were to be there only for the limited four days. The first day, that is January 2, 2020 went quite well with us visiting the only school marked for Priyanshu’s admission for the next academic session.

The second day, January 3, 2020 was very important for me as I was going to apply in the organization I was working earlier. Talks were going on since the Diwali 2019. After much discussion with important people there, and crossed fingers, at 3:00 PM, I had the job. I had already started believing that 2020 was MY year. Same day, our next stop was Gujarat University for Payal’s admission. We were received by her friend. We had a hurried lunch of Kulche chhole (we were running away from it already!). Things looked promising in the beginning but did not turn out so well. After speculating for two months over this issue and trying every trick to secure the migration certificate from Kurukshetra University, we decided that Payal would stay back at Panchkula for a year to complete her B. Com( Hons.). Her PG ( for April and May) and hostel was finalized after much scouting.

It seemed, life was finally coming to terms with me. On returning to Panchkula, preparations started for our departure. Useless and broken things were discarded. My dad made a trip to Ahmedabad, soon after our trip and got a flat for us on rent. In due course, rent agreement was received, signed and dispatched. Things were really looking up for us. Meanwhile, my dad also secured his previous job in Ahmedabad. They too started preparing to leave. With bated breaths we were waiting for the final exam date sheet from the school.

In the first week of February two flights, made by Air India, flew down 324 & 323 Indians and 7 Maldivians to India from Wuhan in China were 304 people were already dead and other 14380 infected.

While we were scuttling around for closures, TCs, etc., Corona was rapidly heading towards other countries. A false alarm was raised when we received a tentative date sheet circulated by some over excited students. My only fault was I went to school with that notorious date sheet as it had exam on the day of holi celebrations. Did school people reveal the date of last exam if that particular exam was not conducted on holi? I drew blank stares from them. To stay safe, we booked our tickets to Ahmedabad for March 25, 2020. Although we had other option as well, March 21, 2020.  I wanted to be too safe; I didn’t want the situation to worsen lest that specific exam (to be held on March 10, 2020) should be conducted later than March 18 (last day as per the tentative date sheet). That’s how I interfered with our destiny.  The last exam was on March 18, 2020.

Along with all this chaos all of us got busy with packing in mom’s house and finalizing packers and movers. My parents had planned to start on March 20, 2020 right after their goods left. But they could leave only on March 21. One day cruelly waste because of the unorganized and miserly attitude of the packers and movers hired.

March 22, 2020 was Janta Curfew to show solidarity in our fight against Corona Virus. By March 23, 2020 we had packed everything in the house with the exception of kitchen as we had run out of cartons and scotch tape.  Our transport gentleman informed in the evening, on the same day, that he won’t be able to come as the movement was restricted everywhere. He would try in other 3-4 days. That’s it! The world did not work after that.

On the fateful day of March 24, 2020, the day our goods were supposed to be dispatched, 21 days Lock down 1.0 was declared. Through the shock and horror of all of it, I kept on cursing myself for not booking the tickets for March 21. But this would have been futile with our goods not reaching us for many days to come. My parents’ transport was stranded on Udaipur – Ahmedabad highway for more than 20 days, and my brother in Jaipur, who was coming to pick us from Panchkula by car. The state borders were sealed without any warning or prior notice.

Today, we are in Lock down 2.0. We don’t know if this will be lifted on May 4, 2020 or we’ll have another extension. Uncertainty is the only thing hovering everywhere. All of us, our family, are going through these lock downs with only one thought – why didn’t I take the train on March 21, 2020. Now, we are safe and secure. It’s a great feeling that we are alive with our hopes and plans brutally crushed by something which we cannot even see with our naked eyes.

Today, for the first time, I walked up to the society gate, to collect my medicines. It was scary. Corona’s silence is deafening.

Thank You Corona! May you have your Salvation soon and be freed from the vicious cycle of life and death.

Myriad Hues of a Mind Across the Timeline

लक्ष्य

लक्ष्य क्यों चुने जाते हैं ,

क्या मिलता है उनसे ?

आप कहेंगे - जीवन का आनंद।

मगर ज़रा उनका सोचिये

जिनके लक्ष्य चाह कर भी

हो नहीं पाते हैं पूरे,

एक  ही पल में छिन जाते

सुख सारे जीवन के,

टूट जाता है मनोबल उनका।

मगर - क्या लक्ष्य के बिना  दे सकते

हैं ज़िन्दगी की परिभाषा आप ?

(12.02.90)

ज़िन्दगी और मौत

गली के उस नुक्कड़ पर

जहाँ कभी आना - जाना था ज़िन्दगी का

वहाँ एक दिन मुलाकात हुई मौत से

पहचान बढ़ी तो एहसास हुआ

मानो दे सकती यही सारी खुशियां वही

फिर चलता रहा सिलसिला बरसों यही

भूल चुका था वो नाम ज़िन्दगी का

मिली फिर से जो एक दिन ज़िन्दगी

नहीं पहचान सका उसे वो

ज़िन्दगी स्वीकारना आया नहीं

रूठ गई तब ज़िन्दगी जो मनी  नहीं अब तक

बहुत निभाई मौत के साथ

लेकिन एहसास हुआ एक दिन

मौत उसकी ज़िन्दगी नहीं

ज़िन्दगी उसकी मौत नहीं

मगर जब तक यह जाना वो

ज़िन्दगी जा चुकी थी कोसों दूर

बहुत पीछा किया ज़िन्दगी का

पर रस्ते पर खड़ी थी मौत

आज वीरान पड़ा है वो नुक्कड़

जहाँ रहती थी ज़िन्दगी कभी

रहती है अब वहां

सिर्फ .... मौत

(27.09.91)

तन्हाइयां

कितनी अकेली होती हैं यह  तन्हाइयां

कितनी बेबस होती हैं यह  तन्हाइयां

कितनी अशांत होती हैं यह  तन्हाइयां

यह मन बेचैन हो जब

कोई साथ न हो जब हरसू ख़ामोशी हो जब

कितनी ग़मगीन होती हैं यह  तन्हाइयां

तन थका हुआ हो जब

मन हारा हुआ हो जब

आत्मा बोझ तले दबी हो जब

कितनी अपनी होती हैं यह  तन्हाइयां

(14.09.94)

भरोसा

बड़ा ही अजीब है  यह भरोसा

किसी एक का नहीं रहता यह

कभी सौ पत्थर की मार इसे हिला भी न सके

कभी छूने भर से ही छन्न से टूट पड़े

यह लोहे का है या कांच का ?

या किसी अद्भुत -सी मिटटी का ?

शायद ,

यह है भावनाओं का जहाँ रहता है प्यार

वहीँ होता है यह अटूट, अडिग

जहाँ रहती है नफरत , वहां?

न सँभालने का झमेला न तोड़ने का डर

क्यूंकि वहां तो होता ही नहीं

(05.02.05)

India

I am independent

I am India

No fear rules my shore

Diversity on the edge

And unity at me core

Integrity, honesty, truth

Are the values of lore

Aspirations galore!!

Grow grow grow

That’s what I am for sure

(10.08.15)

Her Lost Smile

Does she smile?

Don’t I remember

Her last smile?

No, no, no?

May be………..

Foods should do

Arrangements should do

Words should do

Cares should do

May be……….

I should do all

To bring back it all

Just take away tears all

To get back

Her lost smile

Mom’s smile.

(16.09.15)

Friend

Friend is a,

Twin or shadow

Everywhere she follow

Today or tomorrow

In her absence

She live moments

I suffer in silence

Laughter to create

We celebrate

A treasure trove made

Others guess meanings

In my sayings

She knows the words missing

Amidst the world’s praises

She only criticizes

For she knows the best of me

Friend is a,

Curse, may not be a gift

With a big fall

Down a cliff

Curse brings darkness

Does not see kindness

See I must, before the fall

Sister, brother, neighbor or mates

Select and be wise

It has to be for life

A few is better than many

One is best among few

My soul, she knew

Trust and care

To tell stories once

Live not like a dunce

A friend is the,

One with understanding

Others…. just playing.

(20.02.16)

Change Is a Bet

Accepting the change

Surviving the change

Is THE change

Infinite from inception

Eternally in continuation

Till after the last station

Moving for another inception

Change is a fortune

Creating a new moon

Change is a dime

For people, luck and time

Change is good

Change is brood

Take it in stride

Leave it aside

Change fills

Change kills

Flow with hope

Widen the scope

Make it work

Against the drudge

Feel the air

Wait for the fair

For,

Change is a bet

And do not fret.

(28.07.16)

Loving Life

I break myself

To pieces infinite

To make a new me

Upto the infinite

It’s blinding

It’s threatening

New destination

New fascination

Then it happens again…..

The falling apart

The gathering part

The falling apart

The gathering part…..

We laugh together

Me and her, my life.

(08.08.16)

Real Time

GREETINGS!! GREETINGS!!

Coffee Tea Pizza

Meal Burger Pasta

Blah  Blah  Blah

Fun Laughter Shopping

Stories Shares Problems

Exchanges Day Outs Night Outs

Shares  Shares  Shares

No Sorry Excuse

Glitch Glitch Switch

Missed Call No Call

Hurt Anger Sob

Bye  Bye  Goodbyes

GREETINGS!! GREETINGS!!

Coffee Tea Pizza

Meal Burger Pasta

Blah  Blah  Blah

(25.09.16)

GO ON

The day is gone

The faith is gone

Tit – bits go on

Exciting, hmm…..

Interesting, hmm….

Deadlines, go on…..

Encouraging, hmm…..

Motivating, hmm…..

On your toes, go on…..

Dislike it, unlove it

But not leave it

Carry on, go on.

(24.05.18)

Lost Her

Lost her eventually.

Tried to keep her

Amidst the benches,

In the books,

Among the people…..

Flying was her destiny.

Tried to keep her

Amidst the classes,

In the volumes,

Among the people…..

Flying was her destiny.

Tried to keep her

Amidst the walls,

In the hearts,

Among the people…..

Flying was her destiny.

Tried to keep her

Amidst the crests & troughs,

In the heaven,

Among the angels…..

Flying was her destiny.

Tried to keep her

Amidst the burdens,

In the focus,

Among the people…..

Flying was her destiny.

Tried to keep her

Amidst the colours,

In the joys,

Among the people…..

Flying was her destiny.

Tried to keep her

Amidst the risks,

In the dark,

Among the people…..

Flying was her destiny.

Amidst the errors,

In the trials

Amidst the errors,

In the trials

POOF!

Gone forever

Los Forever

Must find her

Leaving before

(16.07.18)

It’s Not My Fault

Maid absent, very often

House locked, very often

It’s not my fault

TV blaring always

Kids screaming anyways

It’s not my fault

Refrigerator had a leak

Microwave had a blast

It’s not my fault

Internet not working

Electricity not working

It’s not my fault

Strangers keep appearing

Asking for lifts and rides

It’s not my fault

Roads are turning

Every now & then

It’s not my fault

Everyone is in a hurry

No chance to overtake

It’s not my fault

Unfriendly strangers

Strange friends

It’s not my fault

Nothing is my fault

Let me be at peace

Let me be alive

Because……

It’s not my fault

(17.02.19)

Colonizing a Soul

Colonize a soul

And see the magic unfold

Before your yes, goes on

The disappearing act

One by One…..

Abra Ka dabra…..

The Belief – Poof !

The Power – Poof !

The Will – Poof !

The Thinking – Poof !

The Desire – Poof !

The Question – Poof !

And finally,

Lo and Behold!

One entire existence – Bang !

(with a lot of white smoke)

Please,

Take a bow, will you,

To the applause

As this act gets over.

(30.05.19)